Kameleon Karma

Premenstrual dysphoric disorder is what my doc seems to think is wrong with me. The tachycardia and ‘funny’ heart issues perhaps stem from anxiety he thinks…

Perhaps I am genetically predisposed to this? More reading here for those interested at “Medicine World”

Yashar, originally uploaded by Karma39.

…Yashar wrote to me this week a couple of emails back and forth. He’s fine and looking forward to some well deserved R&R later this month.

hair - 3 months almost to the day, originally uploaded by Karma39.

Here’s a pic I took today with my webcam so the quality is not all that good….

3 months and growing fast! I will need to get a trim soon!

….and another ‘heart’ episode…tachycardia that lasted for about the time it took for J to get home not allowing me to get off the phone with him till he walked through the door.

What is wrong with me?

More later….tired…off to bed.

You know when you say something and you really didn’t think it came out quite right and you just keep on trying to present it in different ways hoping to make it alllll better? Hmmm! I did that yesterday and I feel so sheepish now. Oh well! We all do it….What’s done is done. There was no ill itent behind it though….

So, yesterday, J wanted us out of the house so he could have some peace and quiet to get his mid-term done…Turns out it wasn’t even posted online for him to do. Well, today I am NOT going anywhere so he’ll just have to do as best as he can with interruptions, noise, etc. Ok ok we’ll go to the park….

We went to see some puppies at Le Pooch Connection and I fell in love with a beautiful little Westie female whose pic is probably the last one shown on the home page of their website. 3 months old yet she was TINY, compact, sturdy, tubby, inquisitive and definitely a confident lil thing! A little Alpha female. JUST WHAT I WANT! At $500, I wasn’t prepared to recklessly go ahead without first showing pics of her to J….but GOD was I tempted!! My friend, Natasha & I even went and almost got 2 little black collars with fake rhinestones on them (same collar, 2 sizes), a black 6 ft long lease and a few chew toys….My pal stopped me from making that impulse buy, something about putting the horse before the cart or something like that….he he! Very wise of her to calm me down and remind me that perhaps she might’ve had some health issues. She was admittedly a little “grunty” but I put that down to her having a hugely full belly of food and just grunted a little when picked up. Who knows? Ah dear, I realllllly loved her beautiful little face and personality. *sigh*

We kept trying to get to the movie theater to see WALL-E , which we finally accomplished around 6.30 pm and really quite enjoyed it! Natasha sat through it all nicely. The little white probe called “EVA” seemed like a cute name for the little Westie I was constantly thinking about (it seemed) throughout the whole movie!

Oh had great fun at Bunco…not too much alcohol and some good laughs! I even won some $$$ too!

Ok, into the shower I go…..ciao for now

So…….Do you? Well, tonight is Bunco night and the theme is China….

I have nothing remotely Chinese or geisha-like….kimono anyone even?….Nope. The only thing I COULD wear would be a nice pair of flashy, silver …

….FLIP FLOPS!!

Hmmmm! What can I do? I suppose I could put some make-up on and “try” to look a little oriental. Can’t really pull that look off nowadays with my SILVER hair…..pfft! (No straight black bob wig either).

I’ll have to go get ready, I offered to help set up the tables and decor etc.

I can’t get over how lovely she looks….I’m very biased of course!

Ugh!

The whole day ruined……massive hangover today….thanks Chickiepoo for the great night and the wine you brought over! You know who you are!!

Poor Natasha had to basically spend the whole day watching cartoons while ’sick mummy’ tried unsuccessfully to regain a sense of wellbeing…to no avail. She was such a good girl though and got me refills of water all day while I dozed on and off.

It was bad. Reeeeeally bad.

Although it’s now 6 p.m. and I feel markedly better, I still have a massive headache….last time I felt this bad was on New’s Years Day.

Scooters

I wouldn’t mind a little scooter!! How fun would that be?! How cool is that?

 Look at it? Gorgeous sky blue…awww! 70 miles to the gallon some say….Hmmm!

We got our security deposit refund check back from the “Landlord from Hades” …no, not the full amount as expected! She found a way to take a bit off….water bill and some weedkiller solution for the last 7 days of April. *sigh*

J said we’re just going to leave it at that and not say a word. Fine. Why bother? It’s not worth it.

I’m just relieved we have a little $$$!

Got up, got showered, dressed, made some fresh fruit salad, ate some toast, J & Natasha had had their breakfast as I’d been a sloth for an hour or two watching TV in bed.

What have I done today?

NADA! RIEN! Nothing….

No laundry, no cleaning, I have not even peeked outside…

Last night we took off for Manitou Springs, walked around and had dinner at the Stagecoach Inn

Sometimes it’s pure bliss to do nothing.

Unsure what to think about this…*titter*

New business opportunity?

Hmmm! I was sent an email today from the Irish branch of Merrill Brink International asking me to provide a quote + résumé to them for an upcoming project.

Hoping it’s not some kind of scam….

Fingers crossed.

On the news last night, we learned of an attempted kidnapping right in the neighborhood we just moved away from! I was so shocked….Less than a mile from our old house.

It really brings home the reality that nowhere is “safe”, not even the cushy, quiet golf course community we lived in recently!

The young girl was 13. The man was driving an older model red sedan.

Brrr!

So yesterday, I sat down in my orange room for most of the day thereby failing to see the wonderful DIY work my daughter did on my main living room coffee table. Totally oblivious was I. I had a small project to do editing a text in French.

Little by little my 5 yr old Natasha is destroying our stuff, though not ostentatious or truly expensive by any means, it still makes me upset as we aren’t made of $$$!

This one made me very upset yesterday: She found some sandpaper and proceeded to sand the top and one side of the coffee table!

Absolutely irreparable. Sticks out like a sore thumb now…no way to hide it.

Every time I glance at it I feel a bit of bile rising in my throat. Needless to say she was sent to her room and when J got home, she took a bath and stayed in. No bike riding. No playing with bubbles in the back yard. Nothing.

Not so long ago, she got a hold of some deep red nail polish and in the process of applying it to her thumb nail, spilled it on part of my leather couch….Luckily the couch is a deep color with burgundy tones so not noticeable…

Oh, look, she just made me a nice cuppa coffee! Awww! She wants to do so much to make me happy today! The only trouble is, I picked it up only to notice lumpy white things floating in it. I asked her what they were. “Sugar!” she says. She just showed me the bag still sitting on the counter….FLOUR! Hmmmm! I couldn’t help but laugh. She was confused until I managed to blurt out that it was flour for baking cakes and not sugar she just used. Natasha tries so hard to be a little more independant each day, asking to make her own sandwiches, pour her own milk / juice….In many ways it’s very cute but at times can be so infuriatingly annoying.

*sigh*

Katy Perry - I Kissed a Girl (Official Video)

I came across this and I liked it! LOL!

(No no, I’m not that way inclined, I just liked the beat and the catchy tune)…

Beautiful places - Cyprus

This is where I was born and raised till I left around the age of 3 for Germany where my sister was born….
I often think about going back on vacation one day with J and Natasha.
Watching the numerous videos about Cyprus on YouTube , I realize now that my sense of familiarity and love of a certain type of architecture, pottery, colors etc. probably stem from the subconscious memories I have of Cyprus.

Ok, time to get my backside into gear here….must go to the Elementary school nearby and see about getting Natasha enrolled in Kindergarten.

I feel so lazy today…ugh!

Oh and is this just a gimmick? I reallllly feel like getting one of these. I was watching the infomercial, or whatever you call it, this morning and it really piqued my curiosity.

Father’s Day was ok..we had tequila lime skewered shrimp, a cranberry/pecan/feta salad, couscous made in haste as the brown rice was still hard after 45 minutes!! J grilled a hamburger for Natasha as she dislikes seafood…then we had chocolate fondue….absolutely stuffed I was! Oh and beforehand, we had a couple of peach daiquiris! We got him a nice new cap (his old one is just sooooo old), a pair of wrangler bermuda shorts, a funny t-shirt and a new shiny tie pin from Macy*s. He seemed pleased with those wee gifts!

J became a fully fledged father on June 3rd 2003 to Natasha Leigh….No parenting classes, no ‘training’ nor having attended any of these courses that seem to be in vogue nowadays.

I’ll always remember how naturally he seemed to just step into his new role! Amazing really. Here he is, with Natasha, 9 days old and in their favorite resting position on the old couch. She could sleep like that for hours just listening to his heartbeat, warm, snug and safe.

I’ve always thought you were such a good father. Never once have I left her with you worrying how you’d cope or take care of her. Not once have I felt that anxiety I feel with everyone else.

Thank you for being the father I’d hoped you’d be and have seen you instinctively become! I love you very much and so does she. My only regret is that we met when the factory was a little worn out and winding down….I don’t think we’ll have any more…I am sorry…I know you have so much love to give and would have loved another child…

Natasha, J and I went to the circus last night - free tickets (again) thanks to a dear friend!

We enjoyed it. Natasha did IMMENSELY, that we know for sure!